Waiting is a challenging thing to do, as I am sure it is for all of us, especially when it is waiting for information we really want. To while away the hours, as the examiners are working hard reading essays and writing reports, Jelly Bean and I have embarked on a furniture rearranging strategy that touches every room in the house, and even reaches to outdoor living areas. For me, it is absolutely wonderful. Jelly Bean is a little more cautious about the process and the outcomes, just like me in exams. She keeps a careful eye on her toy box and favourite blankets while the rearranging is in progress.
This is the first summer in a long time that I do not have a course to prepare for the next semester. Not having to read for a new course leaves a lot of free time. Having so much free time makes the wait for results seem even longer. I have several great things planned for this summer, but the real sense of anticipation comes from wanting to get on with my next academic step. It is hard to think about anything else.
Today, while shoving and tugging furniture from one room to another, I tried to think carefully and realistically about my results. I am anxious for the results not just because they show the effectiveness of my efforts, but because they will help me plan my next academic and professional steps. The need to delay making or executing a plan is quite frustrating to a Myers Briggs ETNJ like me. The furniture rearranging, along with several writing workshops, helps redirect my planning needs and tendencies, but I still cannot wait to apply to my next program.
To stay engaged, and I guess a bit distracted, in May I had a three-week writing workshop on my calendar. It kept me busy, productive, focused, and challenged during the last few weeks and helped me take a step towards a professional goal. It also gave me the chance to see how what I learned in my degree study can be applied in other areas. I am looking forward to another month-long workshop in July. By the time it is finished exam results should be available and then I can do something else I am really looking forward to, which is applying to a postgraduate program.
Characteristically, I have a Plan A, Plan B, and Plan C, backed up with a Plan D & E to reach my next set of goals, including postgraduate work. The Myers Briggs people say that less than 5% of people have ENTJ characteristics, and waiting is difficult for us, but I think the anticipation and sense of excitement over completing one goal and moving onto the next stage is a very common feeling.
It is very exciting to have worked through our degree requirements. All year, I thought about how exciting it will be to have these new academic and professional opportunities, and to plunge into them with all my effort and concentration. Studying for this degree in the University of London International Programmes has been so much fun I do not want it to stop. I will probably keep up with the furniture moving right until my next program begins. As Andy Warhol said, waiting for something makes it more exciting.
Caowrites is studying the BA English by distance learning with the University of London International Programmes. She lives in Pittsburgh in the United States.